I'm sorry to take all of you on my emotional roller coaster but such is adoption. Remember yesterday when I said, we had a potential travel date of April 10th? Oh ya, me too. WELL, today we received an e-mail saying that we will NOT be traveling this month! Apparently Max's social work center still has some paperwork to do. I am just tired of going back and forth. First the hope was planted for Christmas time, then February, then the end of March or beginning of April. AAAAHHHH! She said she would let us know when to expect another travel date. I don't want to know when to expect one, I just want to get one. For real this time. I have been crying all morning. This is just a heart wrenching process. She also told me she was going to send new pictures of Max but he has a respiratory infection right now. So now all I can do is think about him laying in a crib, not feeling well and having no mommy to snuggle. My poor baby.
OK now the logical side: There is a reason for all of this. (As if having 3 children with Down syndrome is not enough to teach me patience. LOL) I may never know why we need to travel later but all I can do is leave it to the Lord. I do pray for a miracle if it is right. Thanks for all the support you have all given me. I really appreciate it. It looks like you will all be kept in suspense with me. =-)